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05.24.06 - 1:54 a.m. I'm Scarily Good At Peer PressureTha latest: Anyway- weird afternoon. Really weird. Had plans to see Crush. Was thinking about taking a nap with him because I'm a little sick. So I took a nap and he came over an hour later. Then he took a nap while I lay there feeling hot to trot. He's a light sleeper. There was conversation between snoozes. But then he's late somewhere. Has to go in ten minutes and I bring out the Paleta from the Good Old Days and basically pressure him into giving me a quickie. He totally went along with it, but I could tell he was freaked out a little. Even though I gave him a very clear out at one point before the condom came on as in: "Are you sure this is okay with you? We can stop if you want." Yeah. Right. I am not managing this whole thing well. I definatley use sex as a way to feel close to someone. And as a way to get off- let's not lie here. It is my mildly x-rated diary after all...nc-17? r? Anyway... he's going to Big City and bringing some boxes for me. Let's see if we hear from him on this trip or upon return. Poor boy. I am too much for him I think. Too much indeed. SIGH. � � |